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Cognitive

"What if growing up in the church led you to believe you weren't going to grow up at all?"

2019

0h 14m

8.0(2 votes)

Drama

Overview

The story follows a gay man as he confronts the psychological trauma and homophobic conditioning inflicted by his strict religious upbringing. Through painful self-reckoning, he fights to overcome spiritual abuse, dismantle ingrained guilt, and reclaim his identity and mind.

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9 featured cast members

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Mat Hayes

Mat Hayes

David

Daniel Robaire

Daniel Robaire

Jonathan

Jessalyn Gilsig

Jessalyn Gilsig

Reverend Wynn

Erica Tazel

Erica Tazel

Nurse Alisse

Del Shores

Del Shores

Brother Elymas

Zakary Risinger

Zakary Risinger

Young David

Jackie Mah

Jackie Mah

Dr. Marston

Shane Almagor

Shane Almagor

Webb

Reed Marvin

Reed Marvin

David's Dad

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Directed by: Mat Hayes
Written by: Mat Hayes
Produced by: Brie Cubelic
Mat Hayes

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